What I Know

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I was all set to write a blog post about my healthy life. But, honestly, my heart isn't in it this week, you guys. I mean I've had a hard time getting my heart in it a lot lately, but this week especially. It's kind of hard to just go on like business as usual.

I've been thinking a lot lately about everything that's going on in our country. Thinking about what I can do, what I should do, what we'll all do.

And I've had a hard time putting my thoughts into words so I'm just going to write.

I'll be honest, I often feel incredibly confused and overwhelmed because I just don’t know what to do or where to start. There are so many things happening. To people I know. To people I don't know. And I know I want to do something, but sometimes I feel powerless.

But I think I spend too much time worrying about what I don't know. So even though that list feels to be getting bigger and bigger, I can't focus on it because the time to do shit is now. So I'm just going to focus on what I know and let it fuel me into the shit I need to do.

I'm privileged.

I've worked hard to get where I am, but that doesn't mean I'm not privileged. I'm a white woman from a middle class family.

I hate that I am and I don't want to be. But that doesn't make it any less true.

I remember a few years ago when I was at the airport. My bag was flagged because a friend had bought me a candle as a wedding gift. TSA pulled me aside, explained to me what was happening, and searched my bags. The TSA guy joked with me about the machine not liking my candle. I was worried, but he didn't seem to be at all. I think about that moment and how different it might have been if I wasn't a white middle class woman.

But I don't want to have this privilege. I believe everyone should have all of the things I do. No matter where you're from, what color your skin is, what sex you are, whatever your religion. I don't care. We should all have the same things. So I'm going to use my privilege for as much good as I possibly can and I'm going to fight like hell for anyone and everyone I can.

If you don't find anything wrong with what's happening, you're part of the problem.

This isn't about the left being critical of the right. Or my candidate losing. This is about humanity. The events that are unfolding are wrong. And discounting anyone's concerns just because you assume we're mad that our candidate didn't win is wrong and extremely dangerous.

I'm totally late to all of this. I mean, like really, really late.

There are probably a gazillion times that I should have spoken up, but I didn't. I was totally one of those white people on the SNL skit. I never thought we'd be here. And I am so incredibly sorry that I wasn't more aware.

If you believe that you're exempt from any of this, you're wrong.