I'm Terrified of Heights

Hi, my name is Jess and I am terrified of heights. Like, utterly, completely, totally paralyzing fear of heights.

Ladders, tall building, flying. You name it. If it's high, I'm totally scared of it.

Last year, when Mr. T and I had our pool, I was too afraid to get on the ladder because it was "too high." I eventually did. After I screamed at him and made him (and mama C) hold it.

I lived on the 12th floor when I lived in Chicago and I never looked down in the four years I lived in that apartment.

I used to be terrified of elevators and kind of pee my pants a little when the elevator has a window.

When I was a kid, I loved roller coasters. Now they terrify me (I'm also pretty sure I would throw up).

I can't get on a step ladder without having a spotter.

When I fly, I have to sit in the window seat. Which I know sounds weird. But I need to see the ground. Otherwise I obsess about how high we are.

And let's not even talk about escalators that have see-through sides so you can see down as you're going up. I don't even know if that makes sense. But those things are terrifying.

The weird thing is, I feel like the older I get, the worse the phobia gets. And I'm really not sure why. I mean, I lived in NYC. It's not like tall buildings wand I were strangers. And it’s NYC. You'd think it would have killed any and all fears.

But yet here I sit, thinking about being up high and it terrifies me.

What's a phobia of yours? What terrifies you?

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