Healthy Life Journal: Week 23, 24, & 25

I'm so incredibly behind and I almost let today pass without writing an entry in my healthy lie journal because life and internet outages.

I'm still feeling pretty good and I'm still at a standstill with my weight. I seriously can't drop below the number I'm at. And I know it's not about the number on the scale, but I also know that I'm not really working as hard as I should be.

Mr. T and I cracked the code on our junk food issue (though it totally sounds weird to have a junk food issue). Homemade chips, queso dip, and fries are so delicious, you guys. They're also super easy to make. And they're also super easy to overindulge on. That's what happens when you make it yourself - you convince yourself that it's not as bad for you because you know what's in it. But that couldn't be farther from the truth. While I might not be putting all that crap in my body, it's still not healthy so I have to be sure to eat it in moderation.

So obviously I'm still struggling with portion control. That's always been such a huge thing for me.

Some of my issue is because I'm in a funk and I want to eat my feelings every single day. And my feelings taste like donuts.

But a lot of it is just because I'm way too comfortable. I feel like I've reached a point where this feels like my life now. And I'm feeling really good about myself. So it's felt a little too easy to just kind of sit back and not put too much of an effort into all of this.

But that's a huge problem.

Where I'm at now would be super awesome if I was just looking to maintain. And that makes me happy because I feel like I will be fine once I've hit my goal and have to maintain.

But I'm so not there yet. Not even close. So I can't get comfortable yet. I still have to push myself. I still have to work hard. I still have a long way to go.

So that's where I'm at. I'm going to try not to stress out too much about it or beat myself up about it and just keep moving forward and applying all that I've learned.